How to not get upset when I don't understand the why of a situation
I've been trying to understand myself better. I'm at work this morning trying to do my job. I do maintenance work in exchange for rent. I've been given the materials I need and the authority to do the job by my supervisor. The method for doing the work is expected and accepted by the owner of the property. Yet someone in between put a stop to my work with no explanation. I'm only trying to do a good job. I'm only trying to help. I need the work to pay my rent because I don't make enough money to really live anywhere else. And I'm bored!! I took this almost volunteer job just to have something to do. In an effort to try and understand better I have been googling up different questions and looking at different Ted talks but none answer the question about how to deal with the lack of reasoning behind others actions and it really feels like they are out to get me. I'm highly anxious and generally pissed off so I get that maybe I'm not the most approachable person ever, but I have never had this issue this badly before. How do I either discover where the work needs to be done to be ok with not knowing the why of a situation, or what am I missing when I am minding my own business and doing my job and I get pulled off of it? I feel like I am disliked enough that they want me gone even though I try to just stick to myself. There's other examples too of what seems like they are after me. I got written up for playing fetch with my dog after "several" complaints. Instead of simply saying something they went nuclear so that there's a paper trail for future reference. I had some materials that I had stacked up. I didn't know what to do with the stuff so I stacked it where it was central to my work. Instead of asking me to move it, they went to the owner who asked my supervisor to move it. I would have been glad to move it if I had been asked to. If I don't know there's a problem how can I fix it? Last, when I was in the office two weeks ago getting a three on one ass chewing I asked why they didn't just tell me there had been a complaint about my dog. I was told that they were afraid I would figuratively bite someone's head off. When I asked for elaboration, I got my mon was mean and so were my husbands from the lady who wrote me up. I feel for her pain, my mom was brutal too. What's that got to do with me? Please help. I'm trying to figure out what to do when I wake up one day and have to leave. I'm trying everything to make sure that doesn't happen but I don't feel like I am being terribly successful.
I've been trying to understand myself better. I'm at work this morning trying to do my job. I do maintenance work in exchange for rent. I've been given the materials I need and the authority to do the job by my supervisor. The method for doing the work is expected and accepted by the owner of the property. Yet someone in between put a stop to my work with no explanation. I'm only trying to do a good job. I'm only trying to help. I need the work to pay my rent because I don't make enough money to really live anywhere else. And I'm bored!! I took this almost volunteer job just to have something to do.
In an effort to try and understand better I have been googling up different questions and looking at different Ted talks but none answer the question about how to deal with the lack of reasoning behind others actions and it really feels like they are out to get me.
I'm highly anxious and generally pissed off so I get that maybe I'm not the most approachable person ever, but I have never had this issue this badly before.
How do I either discover where the work needs to be done to be ok with not knowing the why of a situation, or what am I missing when I am minding my own business and doing my job and I get pulled off of it?
I feel like I am disliked enough that they want me gone even though I try to just stick to myself.
There's other examples too of what seems like they are after me. I got written up for playing fetch with my dog after "several" complaints. Instead of simply saying something they went nuclear so that there's a paper trail for future reference.
I had some materials that I had stacked up. I didn't know what to do with the stuff so I stacked it where it was central to my work. Instead of asking me to move it, they went to the owner who asked my supervisor to move it. I would have been glad to move it if I had been asked to. If I don't know there's a problem how can I fix it?
Last, when I was in the office two weeks ago getting a three on one ass chewing I asked why they didn't just tell me there had been a complaint about my dog. I was told that they were afraid I would figuratively bite someone's head off. When I asked for elaboration, I got my mon was mean and so were my husbands from the lady who wrote me up.
I feel for her pain, my mom was brutal too. What's that got to do with me?
Please help. I'm trying to figure out what to do when I wake up one day and have to leave. I'm trying everything to make sure that doesn't happen but I don't feel like I am being terribly successful.
