How to handle this question of what you did before [closed]

There are 2 reasons I am asking this question on this website:

1. I cannot discuss these issues with a therapist. I cry very much and feel deep sense of shame when I discuss these issues with a therapist and I am not anonymous there. Instead, I take paid pyschological tests online and I read therapy books in spare time (I have read many) and I think they help me. My nation had horrible medical system. It took me real courage to ask this here as well.

2. The culture of my nation is not Judeo-Christian culture. It does not have much emphasis on empathy, forgiveness, and value of individuality.

Background

I did my bachelors in 2018 from a good college in my conservative 3rd world nation in Asia. I was very interested in Physics and got selected in one of the top universities of the nation, but my father was never happy with me as he wanted me to become an engineer, doctor or government jobs (he was never invested in my life) and used to say to me that I am "brainless", "horrible investment", "physically handicapped" (I am not).
Even after completing masters he told me many things like "you have 0 achievement" and many more things. I was bullied there in the student dorms as I was from a minority community (dominant community doesn't wants to share resources) and my father always blamed me for this. I didn't had any friends during masters. Many professors also discriminated against me and bullied me.

After completing my masters, I wanted to apply for PhD abroad as I realized the academic system is not great in my nation. I completed my masters in July, 2020 and so I took a break. I started to study more topics, and in between that I couldn't qualify the PhD entrance exam of my nation (which is mostly centralized). So, my father became very abusive and I fell into depression and he took me to psychiatrist. I used to only teach some lectures (take tutorials) in a school due to depression and shame from June 2021 to April 2022.

In the meantime this also happened: For my master’s thesis (in 4th semester) I contacted Prof X of Institute Y in October 2019 as no one in my university was specialized in the branch of Physics I wanted to study more. Hee agreed to supervise the same and gave me a research paper to read in Jan,2020 when I visited X. After January 2020 he didn’t replied to any of my e-mails. I wrote to her numerous times after Feb 2020 and called him numerous times but he never picked up the phone. In March 2022, he picked my phone and when I asked her why he didn’t replied to any of my e-mails or calls, he told me that she doesn’t remembers me and told me that he is very busy to even have a look at the thesis. So, I had to write my master’s thesis without any guidance. I got second highest grade in it. A prof. of my institute( Prof. Z) had agreed to be dummy guide (which is compulsory as per the institute) and told me to wrote his name as supervisor on thesis when I mentioned him that Prof. X is not replying and if he has any information regarding the issue. Trying to forget all this, I began to apply for PhD positions for session 2022 abroad( West ) in Dec 2021. In 3rd week of March 2022, as I was filling an application for a PhD project I asked for LOR to my referees as applicant had to submit LOR directly for this application form. When I read the LOR of Prof. Z, I saw that he is writing details of MSc project of some other student in my LOR (and the project he wrote was of much much lower quality). I was not selected for any program except 1 masters( 2nd masters) in a country in western Europe and was very very stressed about what this professor wrote in my LOR!! The therapist increased my dosage of medicines. In 2022 July, I was admitted to a 1 year masters program with scholarship (but no PhD program) in a western European country X. Due to medical issues( horrible side effects of medications of depression, severe accommodation issues)I failed the master degree. I had to submit a lot of documents to get the visa as I am from a third world poor nation and arrived in the host country 1 month late after classes had started. I again tried to get admission for a 1 years masters in the same nation and got accepted, this time without funding in the same European country in another university.** I failed the course in May 2022 and tried very hard to find a job at a restauraunt, supermarket, warehouse but I couldn’t find most probably due to language barriers, so I began filling some online forms to earn some money,writing some lecture notes for people in my home nation.** I enquired if the language of instruction is English and they assured me it is. On day one of classes I came to know that the language is not English though, but the official language of that nation. I had learnt that language but not up to B2 level, so I had to translate a lot and refer to a lot of books for reference in English. Due to this, my speed of learning became slow and I dropped out in December of 2023 as It was very difficult to find study material of lectures from so many different books. Teachers didn’t helped at all , they were totally unbothered. If it was not racism , I donot know what it was!! In December 2023, I left this European nation to my homecountry, heartbroken, barely eating anything per day,puzzled,unable to sleep even 3hrs per day and obsessing over self harm( even telling my mother just let me die now), the method I had thought researched in 2021 January-March( I had complete method to do it). I didn’t wanted to kill myself there as It would have cost my family 27000$ to bring my body back to my home country for last rites!( We are not rich). On reaching my home nation, I couldn’t get out of my bed for 2 months!! After 2 months, as my family was understanding me that I was so stressed over what happened ( but I thought I should live, I think I wanted to live and improve my life), they told me to appear for PhD fellowship exam of my nation and also I thought of applying for GRE exam, TOEFL exam , Toefl subject test and appeared for the interview of PhD( in June 2024) at the university I am studying in this university since 3rd week of September 2024 after I got the visa! I got the result of the interview in July 2024 that I passed the interview. I gave toefl in August and I did 162/170 on Quant , Verbal:162/170 and Analytic writing : 4/6. I also prepared for TOEFL and GRE subject test but I didn’t appeared because I had already said yes to Prof. of Central European Nation. I am very very grateful of this opportunity that they have given me and I have tapered off successfully from depression medicines as they had horrible side effects and this was the primary reason I failed in western European nation!! I am in very good shape physically. Culture of my nation is very very harsh towards failures , financial losses, leads the world in suicide and many people socially isolate themselves. Also, people from my community face heartbreaking systematic discrimination.

My Question

If people ask me what I used to do before getting admission here in University what should I answer?

Whenever I get this question in my mind (that someone might ask me) I don’t know what should I answer. I get very nervous because in the past few years I didn't worked much (except for 1 year and was studying, in not good mental health, failed the courses) and I was thinking in my mind if a professor asks me this, the only thing I could think of was leaving the chair immediately and go out of the room, or maybe show them the middle finger?

I do not want to tell them that I failed in that western European nation. I do not mention this western European to anyone in this nation and I requested my supervisor to not mention this to any professor, though some professors who took the interview already know that I was in that western European nation for 1 year.